Thoughts Of A Sufferer

I want to be better. So very much. Sometimes I wonder if I ever will be completely. This is not fair. I did not ask for this. I did not go looking for trouble, but I found it. Will the scars ever fade enough for anyone to treat me normally? To love me? To look at me and not have the first thing they see be scab or scar or fading blemish? What will it take to fix it? I will do anything. Just give me peace. Please. I'm suffering.